[That? It's something Enjolras would actually rather avoid, upon consideration of the matter. It is not that he does not trust Jehan, or wish to see him after all of that, to remind himself that Jehan is alive here at least and that even though he failed his friend, and his goals in Paris, Jehan is still here, still able to write poetry and to continue leading others through that, should he choose it, but it feels selfish, in a sense, to put Jehan in that position. It feels especially selfish considering his friend had recently spent so much time helping Grantaire only to have him snatched away, and more than that...he would not have Jehan see him in the melancholia he's let himself sink into since returning.]
I will consider that, certainly, perhaps speak to the others. Temeraire as well, do you suppose? Iskierka has enough room for herself in her suite but even so, one designed for a human would, of course, be smaller, no?
[Besides, there is a part of Enjolras that certainly feels only that what happened to him during his interview with the being of shadows was deserved. He'd condemned himself in shooting the man on the barricade, accepted it, and the pile of corpses on the other side as necessary sacrifices for which he must, in the end, pay necessary penance and did not, does not regret it now. How is it that he cannot accept what was granted him for committing such crimes as those, and the crime of not allowing the three of his men he had earmarked as needed in the future to walk from the barricade with their lives in hand, to fight harder another day, direct the course of the next great revolution when it came?]
[ To be seen while he is in the state Malicant left him with is a moment of weakness, indicating that he either does not feel he deserved the judgement that came down to him. or that he regrets receiving it. Either means he finds himself above the law of revolution, of the barricade, and certainly it is not the case. Allowing himself to seek comfort for this matter of dispensed justice? Certainly he cannot do such and still continue in acceptance so... He will continue alone, for now, or perhaps with Combeferre when they speak again, but even that has caused him to hold back. He is not worthy of such things as that, surely, and wills himself not to take now, no matter that going on alone is painful to him now.]
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I will consider that, certainly, perhaps speak to the others. Temeraire as well, do you suppose? Iskierka has enough room for herself in her suite but even so, one designed for a human would, of course, be smaller, no?
[Besides, there is a part of Enjolras that certainly feels only that what happened to him during his interview with the being of shadows was deserved. He'd condemned himself in shooting the man on the barricade, accepted it, and the pile of corpses on the other side as necessary sacrifices for which he must, in the end, pay necessary penance and did not, does not regret it now. How is it that he cannot accept what was granted him for committing such crimes as those, and the crime of not allowing the three of his men he had earmarked as needed in the future to walk from the barricade with their lives in hand, to fight harder another day, direct the course of the next great revolution when it came?]
[ To be seen while he is in the state Malicant left him with is a moment of weakness, indicating that he either does not feel he deserved the judgement that came down to him. or that he regrets receiving it. Either means he finds himself above the law of revolution, of the barricade, and certainly it is not the case. Allowing himself to seek comfort for this matter of dispensed justice? Certainly he cannot do such and still continue in acceptance so... He will continue alone, for now, or perhaps with Combeferre when they speak again, but even that has caused him to hold back. He is not worthy of such things as that, surely, and wills himself not to take now, no matter that going on alone is painful to him now.]